Just a Quick Update
Hi everyone, this is a short one just to say It's almost time! After year and a half of waiting, I will be leaving for Guatemala in just under a month. I am very excited to finally get there, and get my feet wet, and it sounds like I'll be hard at work in the busy and short handed group home.
Right now Hogar de la Esperenza has 12 children and is full to the brim. The rural village ministry is now traveling to 25 villages and visiting 78 families. Life looks very busy, and I am eager to jump in and become familiar with the flow.
Thank you all for your prayers,
~Katie~
--after His heart--
“He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30 “I want to be so far gone in You, So far nothing else will ever do. I want to be lost in You.” -- Thousand Foot Krutch.
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Monday, October 6, 2014
What do we look like?
“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.” --Gandhi
I’m afraid that’s all too true even more today. In fact, the world has come to see us for everything we should not look like. In a poll by Barna researchers, Americans view Christians as judgmental, hypocritical, out of touch with reality, insensitive to others, and not accepting of other’s faiths. Christ countered each of these by forgiving, being genuine, truthful and aware, loving and inviting to members of all faiths.
I’m afraid that’s all too true even more today. In fact, the world has come to see us for everything we should not look like. In a poll by Barna researchers, Americans view Christians as judgmental, hypocritical, out of touch with reality, insensitive to others, and not accepting of other’s faiths. Christ countered each of these by forgiving, being genuine, truthful and aware, loving and inviting to members of all faiths.
God open our eyes to understand the revulsion of this.
The study shows that “American’s involvement in some type of
sexual behavior, including looking at on-line pornography, viewing sexually
explicit magazines or movies, or having an intimate sexual encounter outside of
marriage. In all, 30% or born again Christians
admitted to at least one of these activities in the last 30 days, compaired
with 35% of other Americans. In
statistical and practical terms, this means that the two groups are no
different from each other” (The Whole in our Gospel).
No different from eachother?!?!?
How can this possibly be?
We look nothing like our Jesus!
We can try to argue it, but the perception of the world were trying to reach screams back at us.
I dare you, Google image search 'christian' and see the impact we've really made.
I may be stretching, I have no biblical theology
foundations, but I think this is largely in part of our discipline. I once confessed to a ladies group that I had
been struggling and had not had my devotion time in four days. One by one the ladies present with me shared
that they also had either neglected their time with God several times that
week, or they never really had routine quiet time.
Discipline.
We were sharing all the struggles we had been having, not understanding
why it was so hard. It was because
without that time, we were doing it alone.
1 Peter 4 talks about suffering. In a discussion this weekend, this suffering
was compared closely to discipline. I
had never thought about this before.
This is not to say that they are the same, but comparable (again, no
bible scholar here, very flawed thinker making observations). Vs 13 says: “Instead be very glad—because these
trials will make you partners with Christ in his suffering and afterward you
will have the wonderful joy of sharing in His glory when it is displayed to all
the world”.
Without fellowship with other believers, we will grow
dull.
As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.–
Proverbs 27:17
Without prayer, we will grow sick and weak.
Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each
other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and
effective. James 6:5
“I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin
against you”. – Psalm 119:11
“My soul is consumed with longing for your laws at all
times. 21You rebuke the arrogant, who are accursed, those who stray from your
commands.” Psalm 119:20-21
Instead of being defined by what I am against, I want to be
known by what I am for.
We must learn discipline. "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on,
however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have
been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11
~Katie~
After His heart
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Earning
It’s a funny thing, becoming a “missionary”. It’s not what I expected.
I’m not sure why I thought that by knowing this calling, I
would suddenly be free from all my indecision.
That by knowing where he is leading, I will not wonder every step of the
way how it will happen. Or perhaps I
thought that in knowing the call, all my fears would go away because those
whose faith is the most secure have no more fears. But I fear messing up just as much now as I
did before. The uncertainty of ‘how’
remains on my mind.
I did not anticipate this constant second guessing of my
actions. As though every step must go in
a direct unwavering line straight to where I ought to go with no delays. Like every choice I make is being judged,
like I am constantly trying to prove to myself and others that I am worthy of
this calling.
But this is wrong.
I acquire nothing through merit.
I am earning
nothing.
Every choice is not weighed and deemed successful or
selfless enough, and by believing that, I am holding myself capable of living
selfless enough to earn God’s approval.
And I suppose also to gain the approval of people.
Galatians 1:10 says ”Am I now trying to win the approval of
human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still
trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
Though this is part of a larger message, this phrase has
always stuck with me. It is not possible
to be fully a servant of God while I am still trying to prove myself to people,
or to myself. I am trying to do both by
trying to make every action altruistic.
This is dangerous because it places my “success” and
worthiness on my own actions which fail time and time again to meet the
standards I was never meant to meet on my own.
I set myself up for failure again and again.
Who wouldn’t burn out?
Then I grow distant again.
Guilty again.
Ashamed again.
Defeated again.
This is not the life to which we have been called.
So I need to stop trusting myself and trying to “prove”
myself because He has already proven Himself.
By struggling to succeed in this whole missionary thing, I am yet again
humbled ad I see that my perceived failure to succeed is itself a failure
because I thought it was my struggle and my strength with which I was
failing.
My strength was never
enough.
But “the issue is not my
strength, but His, which is limitless”.
Well, that’s it from this very human daughter. If you would like more specific updates, send me an e-mail at katie@hopeforhome.org, or find me on facebook. I would love to share with you online or in person anything and everything!
~Katie~
--after His heart--
Thursday, April 10, 2014
How are you?
"How are you?"
These three simple words have been washed over and
transformed into a standard empty greeting.
Their meaning changed from an honest inquiry into a person’s well being,
and into a vague and nonspecific set of words to be carelessly flung at any
passerby. A simple acknowledgement, and
then move on.
Where did the depth
go?
Where is the caring; the love?
I have a friend of many years who up and messaged me those
three underrated words: “how are you?”.
This message originated from a flight below me. I retrieved my phone and began the standard
reply of “fine, and you?” before something stopped me. These words were nearly hidden in the meaning
that often is for the meaning that was intended.
This was not an empty question. It’s response deserved an equally full
answer.
This friend of mine could simply have walked up the stairs
and asked in person. In fact, we had
conversed among a group of friends not an hour earlier. So why ask?
Or rather, what was it he was asking?
This was not an opinion of the day, a passing thought amongst a
firestorm of passing emotions.
No.
This question written was a question to my spiritual state
of being in a format allowing for my thoughtful contemplation and complete and
honest answer. This was a question to
the health of my walk with God.
A question of accountability.
I was struck by this.
I was struck by this.
My answer to those three words was perhaps the first honest
recount of my spiritual life that I had given in some time.
It was raw.
Again, I was struck by the simplicity of the words ‘how are
you’, and the complexity of their answer are.
This is accountability.
The real.
The raw.
Answers that you can’t always speak out loud.
After a few years of our back and forth exchange of the
words ‘how are you’, and their variations, we have maintained an accountability
that I can say has pushed me a lot. To
my knowledge, we have only spoken in person to this degree a few times. Partly due to busyness, and the privacy
indicated by our very personal struggles, and partly because to talk like this
face to face removes some of the evaluation and reflection we are allowed by
writing, evaluating, and rewriting.
I wonder what it is about us that makes us want to bottle up
any sign that we are actually human and put on a facade of these others around
us. Why pretend we are different from
anyone else in our own weakness?
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my
power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore
I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power
may rest on me”. 2 Corinthians 12:9
So why would we try to
hinder perfection?
So what would you say if someone asked you how are you? No really, how are you?
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