I’m not so great with words.
I’m not writer; I’m not very fluid with the words flowing out of my
mouth or onto a page. “Dear children,
let us not love with words or tongue but with action and truth.”
There is so very much that I do not know. The only think I know is whose child I
am. 1 John 3:1 says “How great is the
love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!
And that is what we are!” I can feel the
excitement emanating from these words. He
lavished this love on us! How can we even comprehend this love of God
himself?
A few weeks ago I pushed the first domino and I can only
wonder why I did not do this sooner. At
the time I wrote these words: “What took me so long? I can be so blind when I am trying to see
with my eyes. I have been so worried
about this that I looked right past your blazing sign. I started out blindly walking that you would
guide my feet. When did I open my eyes
and start controlling those steps? I
brought on a lot of pain by doing that.
All I need to know is whose
child I am. And here comes the peace.”
I was talking about
my decision to move to Guatemala and join Hope for Home Ministries. I have visited Guatemala twice now, and both
times I found that I promised myself that I would come back. How amazing that God is bringing me back to
where I left part of my heart?
So, although I hated nursing school with a fiery passion, I
knew why I was supposed to be there. I
thank God for that because I would have quit many times over if I did not have
specific faces in my mind. I am a nurse
now, and I have no ties on my life. How
gracious God is to make it as simple as that, an opportunity coinciding with a
calling.
So, I am scrapping my 5 year plan because that plan put too
many limits on a limitless God. I can’t
wait to see how God moves now that those walls are removed!
I have already been told that this is crazy, that I have so much
potential here and why on earth would I leave opportunities here to go so far
away from home. I will admit that those
words gave me pause. What am I
doing? Do I really want to leave all of
my connections here? To go where I know
a handful of people, a glimpse of the culture and a few sentences of the
language? But where could I possibly go
but the palm of my Father’s hand. If this
is crazy, then I want to be certifiable.
I know that there are a lot of new things coming up, but the
harder they are the more God is letting me trust Him. One of these is raising support. I have never done this, and quite frankly, I
think this will be the least pleasant aspect.
But already God is moving. I
spoke with some friends at a bible study on Sunday night, and that night two
doors were opened. I also mailed out
letters that I would rather not have mailed, and before they would have reached
the sorting center and been sent back to local post offices, I have received word
of a couple who wishes to help sponsor me, from a direction I never thought to
look. I thought I was jumping and
praying that He would catch me. I find that
he never let go.
So That’s it right there, I want to be so far gone in Christ
that nothing else will do, I want to be lost in Him.
God bless
~Katie~
